I haven’t written or posted anything yet about a Tuesday, in a November, in a year of our lord whatever future noted forsaken that will be a line of demarcation for new generations of where a majority in this once grand land, one that had always prided itself on its exceptionalism suddenly, and en masse, just wholly lost the concept of exceptional and also their moral compass, all at once, almost as if these ideals had never really existed in the first place. Practically mocking the mere thought/thoughts.

I just went to the comfort of my Attic instead, to try and grab some solace, with Flash Fictions that I so love and poetry and funny stories and songs sung to maybe listen to again, though they don’t, obviously, have the same import right now (new ones to come though I promise) and I noted that the only traffic in the Attic I have had in the last few days was of just a couple of glances but a one someone, who, out of the blue, came to be a one someone who liked a post I wrote back in July.

An unintended thing really, that post (those are often the best) just a response to a prompt at dVerse poets to write a poem of loss. That made me think of a poem I had written for my father at his passing too many years ago but, and the unintended part, as just posting the poem as was, was not going to be enough. It needed to be more, it needed more reason to exist other than just a poem about loss. It ended up being about heroes and a good man.

I know, but where are you going with this, Frankenberry, in your Attic solace?

Well, it occurred to me, after all this recent damage had settled like darkened dust around broken things, in final results exalted by all the misinformationists and their bots, domestic and abroad, of all the cowards who kowtowed and bent an early knee in hope of favor (looking at you Jeff Bezos you spineless prick) and all those who now glory in victory with, they wish, a vindictive bend.

So, I sit in my Attic solace and thank that one person who took a look back to a post about a good man and a one, a lifelong conservative, who would have been embarrassed by this circus show, who would have maybe even been angered by what he saw and he was a peaceful, understanding man, until he wasn’t and this current would surely make him an “until he wasn’t” and you never wanted to go there, not from possible violence, as so often promised these days, but you just didn’t want to go there.

Disappointment with a look and a shoulder shrug and a turn away can be way more powerful than anything that might involve a hammer.

Know this in your revelry, you actual, real less than humans, the ones you have warned us of and demonize, that you have no “good men” to look to, none, you all are just simple die-cast facilitators of the demise of democracy, you are tools, you have voted for a man who views our democracy and the constitution as a mere hinderance to his needs, and he has needs, even you can admit that you see this dangerous narcissism, or, sadly, maybe you can’t, but you voted for a dark future anyway, and accepted being nothing more than cogs and faceless oath keepers to a new King who only cares of you as much as much as he can use you.

It will come for you, this new “freedom” this new America. If a Viktor Orban, a devil walking tall in his hubris, who the actual devil himself is envious of and raises a “I’m hands off on this guy” while sidestepping around so as not to cause a ruckus chimes in with a thumbs up you know you have reached the bottom of the well. If you applaud this “victory” know that you have tread onto new unwanted ground, a one where no “good” men actually exist and you will find only …

Well, whatever, I will find solace in the Attic and the story of an actual good man, one hard found and one that isn’t you.

Oh, and Nick Fuentes? Dante is fashioning an additional circle just for you. Special.

Just posting then something from a few months ago.

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(originally posted July 31, 2024)

A new prompt at dVerse Poets comes from Punam of paeansunpluggedblog and concerns grief and writing of it, if you are able to do so and share such.

It made me think of a post I wrote back in June of 2020, during the pandemic, a post about heroes and about my Father, something I wrote back then surely to ease my fear and apprehensions of the time and a post that included a poem at the end, a cherished one, one that I had written for him, 24 years prior, at his passing.

So I thought to revisit it then (with a couple or a few or a couple plus a few plus a bit more new eye revisions) and to re-post.

Thanks P for having me return to this.

It was really nice to catch up with Dad again.

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When I was a kid my heroes were sports stars, specifically baseball and a couple of Pittsburgh Pirates, Richie Zisk and John Candelaria. That’s all I thought “heroes” were, not knowing yet that there was way more to the definition of the word than just that one thing and, not knowing this yet, I never thought to attribute the word to my father. He was just Dad, the guy who was always there, the one who I would check out the window for far too often on a daily evening basis looking to see if his whatever old heap of a car (“it’s only held together by the dirt Stephen” he would laugh) had pulled in yet after work, the one person I always wanted to impress like Richie Zisk and John Candelaria impressed me but, more importantly, the one I never wanted to disappoint.

No, these heroes with gloves and bats and balls were heroes simply because I aspired to their talents and the glory that can come with it but I never wanted to BE them, be like them, as I didn’t know them. But, and I didn’t even really know it then, I was slowly realizing I wanted to be like my Dad, because I DID know him, and he was good, simply just good, the epitome of such (if I’ve taken nothing else from my Dad all these years later it’s the “good” I hope I’ve lived up to). Even in this “I really didn’t know yet” stage I could see how much people liked, no, loved “Hi, I’m Joe Frankenberry from New York” as he would cornily introduce himself years later, one by one by one, to my new friends at college, and not embarrassingly so, as some may have felt of their Dads in such a situation, but endearingly, me being so proud to “show him off”, he so looking forward to the trips back in late Augusts for the newest school year.

I didn’t know then that I wanted to have the same open and giving heart as he, that I wanted to be as accepting of anyone, of any persons no matter their sex, creed, color, religion or any other such nonsense we need to label, to somehow delineate, like that’s necessary. That I wanted to have the same openness to any who would cross paths with his or then mine. That I would take to heart his most steadfast personal mantra of “always try to walk, just a few steps, in someone else’s shoes Stephen”. That I wanted to do nothing more than to sit and listen to stories at family get togethers with the older ones, my dad usually leading the story way, instead of dallying uselessly with my cousins. That I wanted to maybe tell my own stories. That I wanted my future person to be as close to his as I could possibly get.

I didn’t know then that I would veer off a bit eventually and that we would have our differences, which would be all about me becoming my own person I guess, but that it would have a core, a core of Dad’s “good”. I didn’t know then how much that core would mean to me down the road.

This veering didn’t cause a rift though, because that core wouldn’t allow it, but Dad and I did have some difficulty with the times in those days, MY times, my opinions being newly and constantly formed, and refined and confirmed, especially on religion and politics. They were alien to him but he always let them in, lent an open ear. I did, though, try to shield his good, as it was often a challenge for him with my veering but I still kept that core, eventually realizing that his stresses were a result of a changing world that was starting to get polarized and move past him. Dad didn’t like, no, more just plain didn’t understand that we all just couldn’t get along, even with our differences, that there couldn’t somehow be compromise.

I would also tend to call Mom first in times of personal difficulty then, personal difficulties that I thought might be too much for Dad (certainly not giving him enough credit as Dad had definitely seen his share of difficult times, way more difficult than anything I could ever imagine and had been through quite a lot) and there were plenty of Steve issues to call Mom about believe me (Oh, the drama of me) Mom another person I wanted to be but for different reasons. And one I also hope I have done justice to.

As I grew older and wisdom started to slowly grace me I realized that “hero” is a many faceted word, has many iterations, that it has a huge range, from the ones who respond in the moment to aid in sometimes unexpected ways and maybe dire circumstance and sometimes even at their own cost, to the selfless who willingly take on jobs that put their own lives at risk down to the ones who simply provide safe harbor for another’s storm to the dedicated teacher who persevered day after day for a lifetime to try and reach us, us arrogant idiots who thought we knew it all already and who I’m sure offered nothing but frustration too often. Hopefully I gave them a glimmer on occasion when I did respond to their teachings.

To the ones who stood up, were counted to the now new obvious heroes trying their damndest to keep us safe as best they can.

To the ones waited for impatiently whose old cars were only held together by the dirt.

When “Joe Frankenberry from New York” passed away going on 25 years ago now it was right at a time of huge personal upheaval, my short lived marriage coming to an end because of sudden discovered and then desired lifestyle differences, suddenly for me but known deep down to my too soon to be ex wife but a different lifestyle she needed to explore. What I didn’t know back then though was that the lessons learned from Dad, the wanting to be like him and the person he was, to just simply be good, to see all as they are with no preconceptions, no judgements, was the only thing that would get me through all of the anger I could have possibly and easily felt or even unjustly directed. It was a something, a way, that I have clutched, clutched hard to my chest for a Dad taught lifetime now.

Yeah, a few steps in her shoes Dad … I took them.

I just didn’t understand then what hero really meant.

This was what I wrote for him back then …

Been too long a time Dad.

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The Story Of A Good Man

He watches Gunga Din

And I watch him

Seeing myself in the tears

That fall

To the armchair

To the beat of Gunga Din’s drum

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I’ve written many lines

About a good man

Not conquered

By evils that say Hi in the street

Every day

Mocking his ignore and pass

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I’ve written many lines

About a good man

Who asked no questions

To explain pain

Only answers a child knows

But is forced to forget

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I’ve written lines

Of hate

Thrashing at God

Unfairness palpable

On a piece of paper

I can maybe wave on the courthouse steps

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But I’ve never written lines

About a good man and faith

Unfailing

Flesh only a hindrance

The higher

Reached without even having to try

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I’ve never written lines

About a good man’s search

For family

The roots of the tree

Embedded in soil,

Rich

.

About a good man’s search

For history

And reasons

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I’ve never really written lines

About my Father

Just myself

.

A back to make Atlas envy

An Irish song sung

A family cherished

A God that is good

A heart that was a soul

A day that ended with dinner and talk

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Gunga Din’s drum beats

Bagpipes implore

Civil War battles rage

Happy girls dance a jig

Irish ballads cry

As do I

At the death of a good man

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Nothing you ever do, you facilitators, you lackeys, you blind disciples will rate this man, a real one not some orange demi-god, you are too small and I don’t envy you that.